For my performance task, I took a very deep look at things. I wanted to dig deep, dig deep into myself, the person i truly am, and not just the way people see me. Social media has a big impact on the way we preserve ourselves, other people, and other things. For myself personally, i alway tend to be focusing on things like, how i look, how my feed looks, questioning if people will like the photo, questioning if i look like i'm living a "fun" life. Instead of focusing on things like " am i comfortable?", does this picture reflect the real me?, am i happy? am i happy with the people around me? Those things are all what sparked the idea of these pictures.
In the first picture you see, is how the internet sees me, how people who don't know me see me, how i look when i go out. I look at this picture and think "this isn't me". This is who i want to be, the perfect happy girl, with no cares, who goes out, has lots of friends, lives her life to the fullest, i want people too look at me and think "wow".
In reality thats not even close to the person i am, i stay home, i wear big t shirts and don't brush my hair. I stay in bed and cry some days, i enjoy my own company. i feel more like myself than ever when i'm in my room, no makeup on, and hiding under the blankets, i'm not not perfect, not even close, and i'm okay with that. i like the way my hair gets messy and my clothes make me look like a hobo, it's what makes me. me, you know? It makes me different, it makes me stand out, ill wear a big t-shirt and crocs to school and someone will tell me "what a jess thing to wear, i love it" and it makes me smile, its not stupid or weird to dress how you want, or express who you really are, its actually quite amazing, people will admire you more, and it will take you on the right path to finding your people, finding your place.
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